Wednesday, March 10, 2010

dear diary : him

i had a dream last night...i met someone who i'm not expected i'll meet...to me, he's just someone who will always be noted in my history of life...he's the one and only person that i really admire till today...i cant easily forget about him...i think he's the first perfect person i had met (how can i describe him that ways cos i dont even have a chance to get to know him or even be his friend)...all i know, i just analyse him from the outside, deep inside him, i dont know...even people can says " dont judge a book by its cover"...but..i already did it...
Dreamed of him, makes me think about my past...9 years ago when i first started to admire him...admire in a different way..he's my inspiration to be the best in everything that i'm doing...i know him from my tuition class with cikgu Adibah Amin (one of the best author, saterawati negara)...what i like the most about this guy, he always read a dictionary..i said...read..not refer...he read it likes he read a novel...from one page to another...first time in my life, i have seen this kind of person...therefore, i aim to be the best even i'm not from the successful school & i'm not the excellent student..what i need the most is to work hard than the others...
i remember one thing, we had been friend (can i consider that as a friend...maybe you can judge from my story)...here's the story : after school, we had kept in touch through phone, cos at first we're planning to organise a farewell party with cikgu Adibah...but it didn't happen...after SPM results, i went to UiTM for interior design course and he went to UTP (chemical engineering)....then, i haven't heard any news from him...but i dont know, everytime when i remember his name (even just a name)...i will feel weird...undescribable...
today, after the dream (last night), i try to search for him through facebook..yeah!! got it....but...he's married with a wonderful woman and has 2 children..a pair of boy and girl...adorable...so what more can i say..he's happy now...i dont understand...i dont want him...to be honest...but i feel so horrible...when i think about it back...i guess, i'm just being upset because i still cant have that kind of happy life..happy with my career...happy with my family...but to be happy in this one thing...hmm...i'm still blur to tell...what i want is to meet the right person that i can share everything...just like him...i'm not stopping from searching for my him...but i dont have a clue at all...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
-THE END-

2 comments:

nanna zabar said...

nad....sometimes if we waited long enough, it would be the most perfect thing in our life, and sometimes if we just grab anything infront of us sooner or later it will starting to run away each and everyday, and sometimes if we just take things for granted it would definately disapear in a minute or two.....theres always a reason for all of us, be strong...

nadya shaharum said...

now, i can understand why...it's truly worth waiting for him...though it takes such a very long time..alhamdulillah, he's the best for me..tq nanna...finally i've found him~~

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