dear diary : happy bday my darl ;)

i love this person so much

thank you so much

........................

:: always be there for me in tears & happiness ::

:: such a great listener ::

:: great cook..hee ::

:: patience ::

:: cool :: 

she's my everything & the best gf i've ever had

thank you, Allah for letting me to get close to her

happy 28th bday darl ;)

wish u'll always be happy with kamal & the coming soon baby boy

i'm sure u'll be a wonderful mama ;) ;)

stay healthy & i love you, darl ;) ;)

-THE END-

dear diary : bila pena menari ;)

kenapa aku leka

mengapa aku malas

kenapa aku alpa

mengapa aku murung

kenapa aku rimas

mengapa aku bosan

kenapa aku risau

mengapa aku resah

kenapa aku diam

mengapa aku hiba

kenapa aku pilu

mengapa aku sunyi

kenapa aku lalai

mengapa aku gelabah

kenapa aku bengang

mengapa aku baran

kenapa aku lembut

mengapa aku sabar

kenapa aku tenang

mengapa aku menung

kenapa aku girang

mengapa aku tangisi

kenapa aku bingung

mengapa aku teliti

sukar kutafsirkan apa yang terpendam di lubuk hati ini...kekadang begitu kekadang begini...hadir & pergi silih berganti

aku tawa

aku hampa

aku paksa

aku ikhlas

aku keliru

aku yakini

aku keluh

aku teguh

aku akur, aku sendiri

kuputuskan di sini

akan kuperjuangkan

mengecapi kebahagiaan yang belum kutemu sepenuhnya

akan kujuang kegirangan

akan kupamer keyakinan

akan kukekalkan ketimuran

Duhai Sepetku, akan kunantimu

dalam kesabaran & ketabahan

...amin...

:: amat merindui cikgu adibah amin ;) ::

-THE END-

dear diary : ...children nowadays...

i always babysit my lil cousin (as you can see, lots of my previous post had been promoting them..heh!!)...our routine :: play @ tigu (rania said playground is tigu..heh!!) :: colouring session :: reading the flashcard :: watch tv @ youtube (child program..of cos..heh!!)..usually upin & ipin (i pon naik jelak ok..heh!!) i'm quite surprised cos they can follow every single dialogue from the series and even follow some action..i'm totally amazed..hee..really cute & funny.....sometimes, they even fight with each other (usually rania & danish) just because they want to watch the different series of upin & ipin..sorg nk nengok seri hantu durian..another one nk nengok yg ade lagu "tanam2 ubi" (if i'm not mistaken..heh!!) see..if i've told u..i pon dh tau ok..hahahaha...luckily we have more that one laptop at home (we used to be a student...that's why..my laptop & dina's always jadik mangsa...heh!!)

even, i enjoyed watch for them..laughed louds...i realise something is not right...with this popular series...hmmm

let's discuss detail bout it ::UPIN & IPIN

the good one

• the kampung scene : really good effort to give that kind of approach to kids, nowadays, they will know our roots..
• the introduction of the traditional games : konda kondi, galah panjang, etc..most of kids dont even know all those traditional games...if u ask bout video games, paintball, etc...all in their fingertips..heh!!
• the malay's culture : introduced the orchard for fruitpicking~durian, rambutan, mangosteen, etc...picnic at the river, waterfall....awesomeness 

the worst part

• the language that has been used...too rough for kids, i guess...by using "aku kau"...i know they're trying to show the reality of malaysian life  but this is bout education...statement such as "aku sepak karang"..OMG!! can u imagine, my rania (3years old) might use this kind of language...ermmmm.....
• most of the followers for this series are kids below 10years old (10years old and above lyn hi-school musical, justin bieber, they even know lady gaga as well..not appropriate at all...heh!!)...children from these ages (below 10years old) they will follow every single thing that they watch, listen...they love to explore & practice the lesson.
• in term of language, yes!! they might follow 100%..some parent will scold their child if they heard those words..but when they're with their friends, without adults' monitor..that's so bad...they wanna show to their friends that they are up to date as well by using all those words..

kekusyukan melanda :: upin ipin session..heh!!

hmm..i hope, our tv station @ government, please do something...(wah cam isu dewan rakyat pulak dh) i'm telling the truth what obviously can be seen, the impact,children might get when they watch the series..we have a "bahasa budaya bangsa" campaign & "cintailah bahasa kita"..but then, it's not been used at all to educate kids...(tv program especially)...when i was a child, i'm grown up with the educational program & classical tv series :: cinderella, snow white, bambi, sesame street, si luncai, sang gelembai, badang, bawang merah bawang putih :: penuh dgn adat, budaya, bahasa yg puitis, gaya penceritaan yg sgt2 bagus (i adore so much)...all those wonderful story, inspired me to read novels from great author such as :: a.samad said, khatijah hashim, othman puteh, nicolas sparks, etc) i suka baca novel2 yg puitis bahasa & teliti penceritaannya..2thumbs up for a.samad said!! novel cintan2, sorila eh...tk lyn...amat melekakn..heh!! i'm not saying that, i'm the good one, but at least i know which one is the best selection to get a knowledge & feel the wonderful experiences...

i'm concerned bout this matter ;) ;)

duhai bakal anak2 ku nanti, mohon maaf sekiranya mamamu ini amat cerewet sekali...

untuk kebaikan anak2ku juga ;)

(amacam, puitis tk..hahahaha)

-THE END-

dear diary : ...lucky...number two

family is priceless...the joy that u might feel when u're surrounded with ur family...well, i might say~ u might never imagine that...

full of  :: love :: encouragement :: happiness ::

no matter how busy am i, i will find the "one fine day" just to be with my family...as you can see, (for my diehard fan (is there any??..heh!!), most of my posts showed how i spent the precious time with them...all of them are my mother's family...i'm so closed with them...therefore, everytime we're planning for a vacation, family will be my first choice to be my holiday's partner..yeah!!

this time, i would like to introduce my father's family...lots of them actually..hee...my dad is the 4th member in his family with another 12 siblings...my atok & nenek had passed away, in fact i haven't got a chance to get to know my grandpa...(he died for cancer before my dad got married)...the sadness part, when he died, my dad was in portsmouth, UK (furthered studies)...he managed to come back 2weeks after that...my uncle said, if i wanna know how's my grandpa, take a look at my dad...almost the same :: their character :: face :: anything...hmm...interesting...my grandma passed away over 10years ago...a day before my dad's bday (31may)...pretty upset...i can't imagine how my dad felt during that time...

...us :: a big family ;)... 
...let me introduce to you...



openhouse @ pak ndak's home sweet home @ rawang
i've told you :: such a huge family, kan?? hee...awesomeness!!

my dad's siblings :: pak cit, pak ndak, mak ndah, busu zana, mak long, pakcik dang, pakteh (my dad)
**mak bik & maklang not included**

let me introduce the "tuan rumah" :: my pak ndak,
the funniest person in our family

our fav aunty :: mak ndah

she had sacrificed  lots for the family..

mak ndah is the one who took care of our grandma

until the end of her life

mak long & half of her cucu...half ok!!

(manela my dad & mama tk sentap, adik beradik lain dh timang cucu...

anak die mcm tk paham2 jek pulak kan...heee..what to do..hmm)

cousin :: nephew ;)

my dad with his brothers ;)

...alhamdulillah, i'm so lucky for having such a great family :: mama's & ayah's
they're planning for the huge family gathering, end of this year...siap nk tempah dewan sume...wahh!! can't wait for that...

-THE END-

 

dear diary : happy bday sis!!

she's innocent

she's a bookworm

she's nerdy

she's specky

she's blurry..sometimes

she's cool

she's kind

she's smart

she's a great listener

she loves food

she's a hardworker

she's tidy

she loves korean

she's a simple girl

...she only the best i've ever had...

my pillowtalk partner

my partner in crime (i'm always the leader...heh!!)

my co-pilot

my girlfriend

my soulsister

my tears & happiness partner

my buchuk :: my asyook :: my dina 

rania's kak nina

ayah's secretary

생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)

...my dear sis, nur diniah shaharum...

may Allah bless you forever

have a successful career

will find the wonderful soulmate soon

stay healthy & happy

enjoy the bday rewards :: all about kpop

enjoy your day

saranghe, sis



p/s :: dont forget to watch for P.I Ji Woon...hee...oh dear, 12hours more to go..heh!!

-THE END-

dear diary : how do i look :: nerdy lady

...freedom...

...innocent...

...sweet...

...nerdy...

...in love with it...

...i'll declare this moment as...

:: in my comfort zone ::

...hmm...

-THE END-

** long skirt~flea market, top~nichi, hijab~brand outlet, spec~vincci **

dear diary : ...blew me away~~lucky number one *wink*

...........................

when i look at you i'm blushing
when i see you my heart goes thump thump
i talk with shyness like a kid
when i look at you i just smile out of nowhere
like a fool I keep doing that
I think love came to me

You’re the president of my heart
You’re my chests’ star embroider
I’m Genie for you girl
You make me stop breathing
whatever you want
because i love you
There’s no reason for my love you know

you’re a darling
you’re more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and you’re beautiful even when i look at you
you’re my love light

when i see you i feel like im up on the clouds
it may be immature but i keep doing this
i think love came to me

you’re a darling
you’re more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my very own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and you’re beautiful even when i look at you
you’re my love light

you’re lovely
you’re more blinding than the sunlight up in that sky
you shine the dark places inside my heart
my own love light

i love you lovely
even if i close my eyes i see you
looking at you like this
you’re still blinding even when i see you
you’re my love light

love light~cn blue~

-THE END-

dear diary : ...freak out...

...i woke up this morning, i'm hoping for a good day...everything seems normal to me...i cleaned up my home sweet home...

checklist for today

• clean up the house  - done
• laundry service - done
• cook - done (kueh teow goreng jek...menu malas..heh!!) - done
• changed the bedsheet - done
• berangan dpn cermin with my nerdy glasses - done done done...hahaha

TARAAAAAAAAAAAA...after completed all the task...i took a bath...oppsss!! i realised one important thing i'm not doing yet...my BABY GETZ..dh lame tk mandi...alamak!! ke hulu ke hilir ke kl sume tk mandi2 lagik die...hmm...nevermind, will bring my BABY GETZ to carwash service~grooming him..heh!!

after i had my lunch, my student part 06 msg me, asked for help if i could marked her thesis...oh my gosh!! she need to submit for hardcover this tuesday.....again...last minutes....i'm so mad ok...luckily i'm in perak...so i went to my office just for her...heh!! then, it's time to pamper my BABY GETZ...ok ok...i know BABY, u merajuk dgn i kan..heee. while waiting for my BABY's turn to be groomed

"here's the freak out moment"..fuh!!!  

suddenly someone (a guy) came & talked to me...at first, i keep on silence & just listen to whatever he wanna say..here's a dialog : a guy (can i call him mr gatal??) blehla eh

MR GATAL : belajar di mana?

me : ...silent...(he asked the same question again...with ayat2 tambahan yg agak merepek..heh!!)

me : dh keje (i feel so stupid for giving that answer...heh!!)

MR GATAL : kt mane?

me : (i sentap...where should i tell him...) hmmm....uitm

(i masih maintain jujur la for that moment)

MR GATAL : mesti org luar ni...org mane ye...

me : (gosh!! i'm started to freak out...someone help me..please please please....)

so i jawab...org malaysia...

MR GATAL : (he's not satisfied with my answer....he asked me back)...yela org malaysia..tapi kt mane....

me : (gosh..geramnye i...u can imagine how i was acted during that time..mmg cam gelisahla jugak...i'm trying to be cool)(pikir punye pikir i nk kelentong ape..while MR GATAL masih berkate2 lagik nk push i jawab....last2 i jawab...KL...heh!!

MR GATAL : oh KL ke...dok sini dkt mane?

me : (OK OK...this is totally ridiculous) i ckp i dok dlm...(if i said i stay outside..mati i..kalo die tanye alamat pulak karang)

MR GATAL : Oooo..saye ni suke berkwn...gi mane2 mesti dpt kwn baru (gosh!! ingat i kesah ke..heh!!..napela tkde org lain yg duduk dkt kitorg ni..geramnye i...)(after die sibok berckp~mengayatla kan...yg i mmg malas gile nk dengar..tetibe)..boleh bg no phone

me : (gosh!! tu yg i mmg tknk dengar tu...mengambil kesempatan sungguh) i geleng kepala jek

MR GATAL : kalo tk boleh tkpe, saya tk paksa..saye mmg suke berkwn...yela, manela tau kalo saye dtg sini lagik, saye ade masalah ke..nk minta tlg...blehla saye minta tlg kt awak...kalo saye dtg sini, nk jumpa kwn2, nk ajak minum ke kan (OMG!! helloooo..punyela berlambak laki2 yg cuci kete tu, tkleh minta tlg diorg ke..i'm sick of it!!).....boleh ke bg no phone (tk paham bahase btul mamat ni)

me : (i mmg dh panas ati dh ni)...i ckp, minta maaf encik, saya bukan jenis macam tu...saya tk boleh bg...

MR GATAL : tkpela saye tk paksa...hmm...dh ade boyfriend ke? (gosh!! bleh pulak nk tanye....arrghhhhhhh)

me : DAH...

MR GATAL : bile nk kawin (arrghhhhh!! geramnye i)

me : TK LAME LAGIK (dlm ati i, my dear sepet, please come and rescue me!!)

MR GATAL : OOOOO....(actually he wanted to ask more & more...mmg tk putus asa btul mamat ni..but there's a family came & sit next to me.....fuhhhh!!! i felt so relief)

MR GATAL pon blah & duk tempat lain...i mmg lega gile..........fuuhhhhh!!!

he's car dh siap sebenanye....tapi tk reti2 nk blah trus..geramnye i...i was wondering if he'll follow me, right after my car had been completed...gosh!! i mmg cuak gilela..

after mamat cuci kete tu gave the key to me, i mmg tekan minyak kuat trus blah  tapi tk blik umah lagik..i takut..so i pi kedai rahmath..heh!! dh agak lame skit, i trus blik umah..tapi my eyes keep on looking around....just wondering if he's next to me @ at my back..heh!!

.............................

that's the freak out story..heh!! i'm so worried right now..cos this is not the first time, things like this happened to me...dh bnyak kali..i mesti cuak....cos usually it will happen when i was alone (which i am always alone)...i dont mind to go anywhere by myself...i love to be alone sometimes...BUT...when things like this happened...i jadik stress...i jadik cuak pulak nk pi mane2 sorg2 dh...you know why??

• usually guys (in this category) will have a different agenda...(i'm just worried with santau @ pukau @ etc)
• they usually will act weirdly (nengokla muke diorg...mmg cam gatal gile...gosh!! geli ok)
• they will use ayat2 jiwang (lagik i nk muntah dengar)
• the worst part, if they want to rape @ do any sexual harrassment....(ya Allah!! hindarila perkara2 sebegini drpd berlaku kpd hambamu ini..amin)

i just wanna say to all guys in this category (yg dh jadi @ ade hasrat nk jadi)..come on guys..this is not the right ways to "ngorat" a girl..i'm not that type of person...who's easily to fall in love with kate2 yg bermegah2 diri (cos MR GATAL mentioned that he has lots of car...like i care...heh!!)..ayat berkias2 berbunga2...heh!! please be more professional...respect us (ladies)...if we are not interested, tolongla paham...dont keep on pushing us...

because of MR GATAL & my past incidents (almost the same with this)..i truly deeply madly need someone right now...at least i will feel secure...i will feel lucky to have someone who is totally different from MR GATAL, who can protect me, who will always be there for me, who will belasah that MR GATAL (hahahaha) (cos i ni jenis yg suke pikir sedalam2nye..tu yg bahaye tu)...

...MY DEAR SEPET, please show yourself...i really need you right now...

-THE END-

dear diary : how do i look :: being nerdy + innocent

yesterday, studio zero one had completed their final project presentation..fuh!! alhamdulillah...after i had been a "singa lapar" version....they managed to fulfil the requirement for the task..

so today, i've decided to go somewhere...

somewhere i could

...release my pressure...

...i could be a stylista..heh!!...

...i could keep my eyes open "cuci mata session" for shopping..heh!!...

QUEENSBAY MALL

i choose you..yeah!!

the main purpose, i was there, to find something for my sis's bday  (271010)...at the same time, i was looking for harem pant @ long skirt...but i failed to find those "a MUST" have item in my wardrobe..heh!!

...so what did i get to replace the harem pant...

????

????

????

????

wondering, huh!!

TTAAARRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

yup......the powerless "nerdy" spec..heh!! for your info, i wish i was listed to be born to wear a spec....unfortunately, i am not..heh!! since i was a child i wanna wear a spec..i thought (during that time...even till now..heh!!) who ever wears a spec, seems like an intelligent person...hee...it's all about fashion....not the xpensive one..VINCCI mali woo..hee..i ulang alik 4-5 times just to find the right spec..heh!! i love this one so much...i think it suits me...what say you??

you know what, tonight in fashion police, the nerdy spec has been listed as "a MUST have item"..heee..unexpectedly....heee...

the nerdy glasses  (fashion police)

...even, your eyes're "sepet" also looks good in nerdy glasses...

therefore, i'm feeling good as well..hahahaha...(perasan kejap)..no la i mmg nk pakai spec...i always feel that i wear it...if u can realise this situation, my dear friends ( i always touch my nose, just like i'm wearing a spec..heh!! ~ ala2 mcm i nk betulkn spec i la..padahal tkde spec pon..tapi tangan i gatal nk tolak jugak "something naik ke atas~kt idung...heh!!) it's like a habit to me..heh!! sakitkn i ni...hee

i upload my photo, wearing this nerdy glasses in FB...some give their support...some, make it as a joke....heh!! it's not that easy to make people understand what am i doing...not all of us have a same thoughts...so, i'm cool with it...no matter what, i loike my nerdy glasses so much ;) ;) ;)

my look @ penang :: just being me :: innocent looks ;)

top (korean boutique in kl) :: skirt (flea market the curve) :: gladiator (vincci~i loike so much) :: bag (pull & bear~feeling mcm gossip girl...heh!!)

(bgla i peluang nk berangan jadik model k..heee..lynkan jek)

conclusion :: be happy for being yourself & show your self-confident, so you won't feel weird, even people keep on looking at you 4-5times (mcmla u ni pesalah buat kes jenayah kan..heh!!) as long as you know your limit ;)

-THE END-

dear diary : blew me away :: it's raining in here !!!!

gosh!! it's been a long time i have been invisible in blogger world

helo blog!! you know how much i miss you ;) ;)

lots of thing happened last few weeks,
erm...will share with you later...i promise!!

.....for now i just wanna tell you.....

THE FUGITIVE :: PLAN B

is here

in Malaysia

oh my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

super duper awesome

i'm so excited...sengih sampai telinga ok ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;)

i dont know why....i really wanna hug someone right now...hahaha

...i know it sounds so childish..but...who cares...

heh!!

new routine :: 9.03pm i will sit in front of my cute tv
watch for my new "BABY" series ;) ;) ;)

tqvm KBS WORLD...really make my day

-THE END-