dear diary : wahai "org melayu"

i'm not the last minute type of person..i'll make sure all the tasks given will be done perfectly and completed before the due date @ on time...insyaAllah i'll try to complete it...DR M selalu berpesan, org melayu kena merubah sikap kalau nk berjaya...then,  where is the effort to be in the same level with Japanese, Chinese, British, American, Korean, etc ?? malay, always the same...i'm trying so hard to make sure that i'm not the typical org melayu...i wanna be the different type of malay...even, i'm not the excellent candidate to be in TOP 10 of successful malay..but i'm willing to change to be in the right track..to achieve the goal in any task given...

However, if i'm the only one yg completed the task on time, but org besar yg memberi arahan masih di takuk lama...lambat bertindak & kesudahannya kite yg kategori ikan bilis ni, diseret sekali masuk dlm  golongan "last minute type of person"..gosh!!!! i hate to be that ok!! gerammmmmmmmmm...this is not the first time...i know that i baru jek masuk dlm this group to manage this tasks..tapi i rase sampai bile kite nk kene akur dgn kate-kate mcm ni " biasela nady, mmg mcm ni kalo sape yg handle this taks, mmg selalu kene rombak last minit mcm ni"...waahhhhhh!!!!! senangnye ati ni nk kene terima hakikat2 mcm ni..come on org melayu!! kite ni nk sedarkn org melayu, tapi kalo kite sendiri masih mcm ni,  camne dgn anak bangsa yg kite didik ni...berbuih2 kite ingatkn anak2 bangsa kite kene pandang ke hadapan...luaskn pikiran...nengok dunia luar...be innovative...tapi...........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

belajar tinggi2..present paper sane sini, buat research sampai sepelosok dunia, puas study psl org luar, blik malaysia, ckp "KITA KENA BERUBAH" "lihatlah org jepun, lihatla org UK, lihatlah org sane sini...bla..bla..bla..." sekadar melontarkan idea sebegitu sahaja...NOKTAH!! penyudahnya, tidak bersemadi langsung dlm lubuk sanubari org melayu sendiri...apa gunanya???

renung2 kanla...we need to change..being unique doesn't mean that u wanna be exposed...u wanna show of..but to make sure that u're recognised because of the good changes that u've done...salah ke tu? so org melayu, kenapa kite mesti nk bg negative thinking pd org luar bile mereka bg persepsi mengenai kite...bgla ruang utk org luar realise how excellent we are, how capable we are to handle any works...come on!! mase berlalu dgn pantas...change for good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-THE END-

dear diary : healthy diet a.k.a makanan org malas...heh!!

dear everyone, have u eat your lunch? yup yup yup..what was it?? McD Big Mac? Nasi kerabu? spaghetti? nasi ikan keli goreng cili, sayur taugeh masak lomak? wah!!!! i love food so much..i was born in a big family both side of my parent..org melaka pulak tu..kalau bab makan mmg lemau le..my grandma such a great cook...classic style..sekali masak..bawang seguni pon tk cukup ok..heh!! dgn lada lagik..pedas tk hingatla kan..tapi i tetap tk mkn pedas...heee...tapi dek kerana nenek timah i yg masak...tolak tepi bab pedas tu..mama mmg pewaris yg superb!! great cook as well..asam pedas, nasi ayam, mee kari, mee siam, pizza, marble cake, choc chip, choc cake...wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! lapau pulak hah...hahahahaha

i've told you..mmg superb kan..sume tu homemade ok...sakit2 pinggang la jugak..

but worth it!!

today's i wanna share something...i love to eat malaysian food..however, i wanna change my food style..heh!! i rase dh bertimbun2 lemak yg terkumpul in my body...heh!! bleh ke camtu?? since i can't eat something that difficult to chew..alternative please!!!!!!! i wanna be healthy yet kenyang..this upcoming semester's gonna be the busiest moment ever..maybe i cant even find my proper lunch time..heh!!  so i need to prepare something at home as the bekal la kan...hmm...

i come out with this one..healthy food ke ni? hee...rupe mmg tkde tapi quite ok..cos i love sandwich so much..yum yum...ditabur pulak dgn 1000 island..mmg superb (that one not too healthy...bnyak kolesterol tu...heeee)

how bout dessert?? i mmg after mkn mesti nk bende manis2...i love dessert so much...anything to do with choc..u name it!! (rasenye sume2 pon i ckp, i love so much kan?? hahahahahaha)..dulu2 mase fisya stayed with me, it's a MUST to have TROPHY choc ice cream...heee...untung kedai rahmath ok!! 2 hinggit satu..hee..my fav ni..dulu2..hee

 but now, here's my new dessert

jeng

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yup, kiwi miwi....yum yum!!

to make it looks like i'm eating my ice cream, here's the way to eat my kiwi miwi...hee..ok tk?? so bye2 to sundae choc McD..cos kiwi miwi, really awesome!!

how's that?? ok tk my healthy diet?? i aim to eat rice only twice a week...before this almost everyday i mkn nasi..it's me..for all of u, enjoy with any food u're eating..cos i use to love all those foods too..cume, i need to change lil bit ;) who knows, later i'll back to my old time eating habit..heee ;)

enjoy your lunch ;)

-THE END-

dear diary : my pet ;)

last holiday, such a memorable moment ;) can't wait for another sem break..heee...cam student la pulak dh..heh!! will share with you my holiday story, later k..today i wanna share with you my pet..heh!! tapi the fake one...bleh ke camtu?? hahahaha...dijaga rapi di melaka & berdondang sayang menghiasi bilik i ok..heh!!

His name is schumi...cam korean tk bunyik..hahahahaha...i've been taking care of schumi since i was a little girl..He was born in the same year with me, so die pun berumur 27tahun jugak k...amacam?? gerun tk bunyik...

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this is schumi, my first teddy bear & the one and only teddybear that i still take care of..seriously dh 27tahun ok...i lupe pulak nk amik tag blakang schumi ni...1983...confirm!! this one, sorry to say, even last time, my cousin~danish cried to have schumi, i mmg tkkn bg..hahahahahaha....i sanggup belikn die teddy bear lain...heee

okla tu jekla stody of my pet..heh!! saje nk bgtau, i ade brg antik yg i simpan ok!! hee

-THE END-

dear diary : being a "gadis besi" ;)

I'm not the perfect person. Honestly, i'm so happy for being me. Eventhough, i've got 2 rabbit teeths at the centre of my mouth..i'm happy..it's represent my family trademark (not all of them have that kind of teeth).. but yes!! we have the "gigi kapak" version (huge size of teeth). When i was in school, Alhamdulillah, none of my friend acted weird to me. Therefore, i dont even thought that i was imperfect. I'm still laughed so loud, smiled to everybody.

I still remember till today, during my Diploma's studies at UiTM S.Alam, this is the first penghinaan, i've ever got in my entire life. He made fun with my teeth..he called me "rabbit"...for the first time, i'm ok with it..but then when he kept on making fun with it...gosh!! so annoying. because of that, i never talked to him for almost 2weeks..hahahahaha..biasela childish skit...its hurt ok!! geramla i...now, we're doing just fine..he's already married my bestfriend who have the same name with me. ok ok...lets forget about it..hee..

aisehman!! there's one other thing that was related with this story...heee...lupe pulak...one of my dearest bestfriend had asked me to wear braces (degree's studies) hee...at first, i'm just smiled & said that i'm not ready & never thought bout it yet. but then when she kept on pushing me to wear braces...gosh!! i'm so sick of it...heee...sampai i tk tegur die la jugak...we've been a officemate (Azarh interiors) for 3months before i furthered my studies in UK. during that time la, she asked me again...gosh!! i geram gile ok..hee...jahatla i ni kan...asyik tk tegur org jek...heh!! i'm not that sensitive..i can accept myself for who i am. but then when people keep on telling me something that makes me feel so annoyed..i bengangla kan.

tu kisah dahulu kala...so childish..heh!! now, i become more matured. One day, i've told my mama that i wanna wear braces. Ntah mcamane boleh terbuka hati pon i tktau..heh!! Mama really supportive..tq mama ;) but to be honest, i'm not wearing braces to be beautiful. It's because, i'm started to feel uncomfortable with my rabbit teeth..i rasa mcm makin terkeluar jek lately...(mengada2 jek bunyi..hahahaha)..since i've a budget for it..so i've decided to wear it..

Starting from that moment, i'd done few surveys. Asked my dearest student a.k.a partner, farahiyah...(she's my senior la, in wearing braces..heh!!) she gave great tips & kisah2 tragis menjadi gadis besi..heh!! tq dear, u help me lots ;)..tips = done...next, i'd to find a great dentist..hmm..near to my seri iskandar, easier for me to have a date with my dentist every month ;) survey punye survey punye survey, finally, KLINIK GIGI NGO menjadi pujaan hatiku..HAHAHAHAHAHA (gelak jahat cam dlm seniman bujang lapok)..location = ayer tawar, nearby...so okla kan..

While other lecturers were busy marking the exam paper, i dh settle awal2 dh..heh!! kerek skit..i pulak busy ke hulu ke hilir date dgn dentist i, Dr. Chin..sweet guy ok..very fatherly..heh!! tenang jek, i pon tk takut nk gi cabut gigi ke ape2 ke i mcm tk kesah jek ape2 pon yg dentist i nk buat..kereknye bunyik!! hee..nanti i'll take his photo..hee..

at first, Dr Chin, checked on my teeth..nk buat research la kan, ape masalah, rawatan mcmane nk kene buat...dawai tebal mane nk kene pakai..playar besar mane nk kene pakai nk pulas..hahahahahahahaha (i'm just kidding..playar such a big NO ok..heh!!)..Then, he made a sample of my teeth..buat acuan la katenye...strawberry flava ok, the taste of the gel..heh!! then, he asked me to do a x-ray..i pon pelik jugak..ade eh?? i pon gi buat xray kat setiawan..(route guide by abg izack..tq ;)) map mmg superb..siap tunjuk secret recipe kt setiawan lagik...yg i never thought pon ade ok..hahahahahaa (teruk btul i kan)...

Then next step, cabut gigi..jeng jeng jeng...i never been in this situation before..i imagined it might be hurt..heh!! tapi disebabkn kesopanan dan kesusilaan Dr. Chin, Alhamdulillah..i felt just fine..bleeding skit..starting from that moment la, nafsu mkn i tersekat sgt2...mkn roti jek..heee...nk bg sedap skit, sapula jem strawberi..heh!! 3 batang gigi i kene cabut..3-3 gigi geraham depan...yg lawak tu, ade my friend thought that, dentist will took out my front teeths (yg rabbit tu)...hahahahaha...aiyo!! camne la rupe i kalo camtu gayanye..heh!!

this is my "geraham" yg kena cabut tu (Amaran: sape yg geli, for ur info, i dh sental gigi i ni sampai berkilat2 ok..heee..sorila kalo geli)

3rd june : braces in me ;) 3pm my appointment..i ok jek..tenang jek..heee..mcm tkde buat ape2 tapi bile dh sampai klinik, sampai sejam awal pulak tu, mulut ni tk lekang dok bace Ayat Kursi...tk cuak konon...heee...tetibe : "CIK NOORUL NADYA" nurse called my name...fuhh!!!! this is it..redah jek!!

i dok kt dlm tu 2hours...punyela lame i kene nganga mulut..hee...tapi seriously i ngantuk gile mase tu..lagi pulak, lagu2 zaman my father diorg dok mainkn, simply red, george michael..heh!! nasib i bleh layan lagik..cos some of the song, i knew the lyric...hahahaha ( i pon mcm tk caye ok!!)

5pm = braces completed!! i pon trus balik melaka...punye tk saba nk cuti...hip hip hurray!! Alhamdulillah, everything's fined...TQ Allah, mempermudahkan urusanku ;) mlm tu sampai jek melaka..mama ayah dina dh terpacak kt depan pintu, tk saba nk nengok gigi besi i..hahahahahahhaa...klakar2...mlm tu i tido dgn lena diulit intan my sis ;)

while, being "gadis besi" i'm so cautious for taking a good care of my teeth..lots of tool yg i beli & get ready..so another thing which will always been kept in my handbag is the toiletries bag a.k.a " beg gigi" i panggil la..hahahahahaha 

my beg gigi ;) ade traveler toothbrushes, ada listerine (for emergency), sabun cuci tangan lepas gosok gigi..heh!!

my lovely toothbrush..very handy..easy for me..siap ade ubat gigi skali..style kan..heeee

This one is the interdental brush (specially designed to clean between teeth...(before this i'd never used this thing pon..heh!!)~guardian version

this is the same, but tesco version..hahahahaha...it's kind of excited to buy anything which related with tooth care..heh!!

All of those things will always be with me wherever i go. when i had my meals, then i'll automatically brush my teeth...always!! dulu i tk kisah sgt pon..paling teruk pon i kumuh2 jek dgn listerine..skarang tidak lagik...bukan mengada2 (even mmg mcm pon..heee) tapi i cume tkmo nanti kang ade yg pengsan pulak if i tk gosok gigi terus berckp pulak kang...u know me, talkative & tersengih jek keje..tersengih bukak mulut pulak tu...gelak kuat...heee..so kenela jage..ok??

in my bathroom, another tools, recommended by Dr Chin (die pon yg jual bende2 ni...heee) business minded sungguh!!

bekas pon bentuk gigi...teeth maniac sungguh i ni..heh!!

the new me, lepas ni jgn pulak ade yg tk kenal pulak k..heee (my intention, to show my new shade, i loike it ;)) heeee

sekian, alkisah saya sebagai "gadis besi". diharapkan dapat dijadikan pedoman utk semua ok..this morning i'd an appointment with my dentist..add for another wire...hee..nasib ok..cume tkleh nk kunyah makanan yg liat2 jekla..hee..tapi lepas tambah wire baru tadi, i mkn nasi ayam kt RASAMAS...hahaha...pastu susah nk gigit ayam...hahahaha padan muke i..tapi i gigit jek..susah2 sgt i telan jek...hahahaha...pastu glabah carik toilet nk gosok gigi..tapi disebabkn i dh beli bnyak brg kt tesco, so kene pakai trolley..terpaksala i berus gigi kt sinki luar..adela mamat sorg ni dok nengok i..pelikla kot..hahahahaha...hentam jekla...janji gigi i sihat..heee..tapi yela, manela tk pelik mamat tu, i punye tersengih depan cermin tu punyela lame...hahahahahahaha...yela nk nengok kot ade ape2 yg tertinggl ke kan..heeeee

to my dearest friend who will be a mom soon, i'm sorry for getting mad at you long time ago...heee

(while i was so in a mood, writing my blog, ade pulak spider besar dtg..geramnye!!!! kaco btul!! i kene jadi superwoman ni, fight with the spider...lets go ridsect!!!!!!) AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!! heh!!

-THE END-

dear diary : theraphy mode ~ forgiveness

true forgiveness means letting go past pain so that you can be free to move forward in your life...

...i forgive (all the guys who had appeared in my life) fully and completely...

...i release the trauma from this experience now...

...each day i am becoming stronger and stronger...

...i am letting go of past hurts to allow new love into my life...

...i love myself and accept myself completely...

...i am focused on a beautiful, bright future for myself...

...i ask my deep mind to clear any remnants of this past trauma right now...

...i release and clear any false ideas that i made up about myself as a result of this event...

...i focus on all of the good in my life...

...i am ready and willing to experience healthy relationship...

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-self forgiveness-

feel free to say these to yourself

...i release and clear any lack of forgiveness that i hold for myself...

...i embrace my greatness fully...

...i love who i am and the person i am becoming...

...i forgive myself fully and completely for anything i have done in the past that i perceived as wrong or bad...

...i accept all parts of me...

...i have compassion for myself and my past actions...

...i trust myself...

...i love myself...

...i know that who i am is inherently good...

...i always think the best of myself and do everything to the best of my ability...

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...thank to ALLAH & myself...
  

-THE END-

dear diary : D.I.Y :: i loike turquoise ;)

i love turquoise so much...peaceful in my mind if i'm wearing anything in this colour...my wardrobe, i rearrange all clothes based on the colour scheme..so colour turquiose agak banyak compared to others..heee..another colour that i love the most is dark purple..gosh, i'm so crazy with these two colours..heee...well, that's just the mukadimah..heee ( u know me..heh!!)

lets focus on the real story..heee... i highlight the turquoise colour to inform that i'd just bought the new wedges (can i consider it as wedges?? ntah i pon tktau)...the design very simple...ala2 terompah (so classy kan??) okla let me show u the wedges...

i've told you, simple design, right??

i need a casual shoes..therefore i bought this wedges...BUT, it's too simple for me (agak tk berbaloi dgn harga...heeee) masa dkt NOSE ni pon, i took about an hour jugak to make a decision (i try others shoes too..heh!!)...puasla salesgirl tu ckp, cantikla amoi, cuba u jln baru tau maaaaa..ade bunyik cam pelat chinese tk?? hee...last2 i kalah jugak cos of the colour...this wedges in turquoise colour, dh melekat kt kaki i, if i'm not buying it, confirm mlm termimpi2...mase drive bleh berangan..so i pon kalahla..heh!! i bought it!! gosh again!!!!! born to shop!!!!!!!!!!!

on the way back home, i terpikir mcm2...i decided to make over the wedges to make it more classy & looks expensive..heeee...sampai jek rumah, i geladah my accessories box..try to find anything that i tk pakai lagik...then i found this stuffs...

this rantai, i bought it @ OU when i was studying for bachelor degrees...heee..drpd i simpan sampai jadi artifak dlm kotak, better if i use it for something meaningful ( i rasela my tindakan tu agak meaningful..heeee)..if my mama knows bout this, confirm kena marah..heee

then, i've started to think what should i do with all those beads...maka keluarla ilham seperti berikut :

gigih i jahit ok...heh!! i've told u from my last month entry "i mmg dlm kategori yg beriya2...heee"

gigih punye gigih punye gigih..sampaila siap satu...tinggal satu jek lagik..heh!!

ok ke my design?? can i be the next jimmy choo?? hahahahahahaha.."u wish!! my dear nadya" said donatella versace (when she heard my statement..heh!!)

i teruskan jugak kegigihan i sambil berangan2 cam ada org interview i tanye, where i've got the inspiration to be a footwear design (gosh, baru jahit beads jek..heloo!!! heee, tkpela, paklang i selalu ckp, berangan tu free..so selagi bleh berangan..go ahead..heh!!)...lepas dh abis dlm angan2 di interview..maka selesailah kerjaya baru i sebagai footwear designer (nk bg nama sedap skit, kalo ckp kerjaya sebagai tukang jahit beads di kasut, cam tk bestla kan..heee)..

here's the final result from my kegigihan tadi,

how's that?? i know all of u are designer too..what say you?? ada mcm NINE WEST...(sudah2la berangan wahai nadya kusayang..heh!!)

tak sahla kalau tkde model nk menggayakan my wedges tu..hee..(sila abaikan kaki model tersebut ok...tkdela secun gisele....heeee)

no matter what, i'm so happy cos i'm so passionate to do all those things...for your info, i mmg kadang2 mcm tu skit..love to modify my stuffs according to my taste..heee..that's me....my mum tk larat nk layan kadang2 tu...tapi bile dh siap, my mum gonna love it..(i tktaula kan, tapi selalu my mum akan senyum2 kucing...i assume senyuman tu tanda sukela kan..hahahahahahaha).....

that's the story for today...just wanna share the other part of me....heeee ;) ;) ;) ;)

-THE END-

dear diary : happy bday ayah ;)

1st june 2010, my ayah's 57th bday...i love u ayah..so much...

cuba nengok cikgu pauziah sengih kemain lagik..heee..love u mama & ayah ;)

lets talk about my ayah, me & ayah not as close as me & mama...mama said when i was a child, my father was so busy with his studies...so he didn't have much time to spend with me..he's struggling so hard to win his strict supervisor's attention (mat saleh tua yg selalu emo..heh!!~mama said)...so mama take care of me all the time (cos it took about 4years for me to get a sister..heh!!)...no matter what, i know ayah loves me so much..he just dont know how to show it...he's not the type of man who always says 'i love you..i love you...i love you' but when he does something for me & the rest of the family, i can feel the love deep inside his heart...

ayah dont talk too much..he's the cool one..(totally contrast to mama & i'm exactly like my mom..heee) talkative...hee...the sweetest part, ayah love to give a sweet wishes card to mama...especially during their wedding anniversaries..so sweet kan..hee..that part, i admit, i'm just like ayah.. i love to give wishes card to special person in my life...

my dad punya hadwriting mmg unique kan..heee

  antara kata2 azimah from my ayah ;)

ayah's fav tv show : mr bean, whose line is it anyway?, late show with david letterman, spontan, are you smarter than the fifth grader?, golf channel....i do love to watch my ayah laugh so loud when he watch mr bean & whose line is it anyway?...i cant imagine how happy he is...hee..too loud...hee..i love that...

ayah not that garang..he's so cool compared to mama...biasala mane2 ibu pon, selalu berleter kan? utk kebaikan anak2...dulu i mmg tk suke, tapi dh dewasa ni, i mule realise the good things from membebel (cos i pon slalu membebel kt my student..heee)..BUT once ayah's getting mad, dont u ever try to play around...this happened when i was young la, still in primary school, i'd done something bad..biasela dulu2 playful skit, panjat sane panjat sini..hee...till my dad got mad..badly..ape lagik, ayah tk ckp banyak, ape yg bergerak ONLY jari jemari yg tersusun cun melecun dihayunnye sampai ke telinga...PEEHHH!!!!!!!! mmg sakit gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....i tk melalak kuat tapi tetibe meleleh jek air mate tk berbunyik...cos tahan sakit...fuhhh!!!!!!! mmg nightmare la kalo sape2 yg terkene & 3 of us mmg kene la..hahahahahaha

he's my idol...he's one of the reason why i choose to be a lecturer..being his child, i watch him everyday, prepared his notes, marked students paper, do his research & so on...i adore him so much cos he's so passionate with his job...he's such the down to earth type of person..suke jadi belakang tabir & not expose too much to public but senyap2 he'd presented so much paper internationally...that's the part that i love so much about ayah...even keje yg seringan2 mane pon, he'll try to complete it as perfect as he could..but then mmg perfect gile la...tabik ok!! (tujuan i bukan nk membangga2kn my dad, tapi ni adelah luahan ati dr seorg anak gadis yg memerhatikn ayahnye selame ini)

alhamdulillah, hasrat i utk ikut jejak ayah i tercapai, especially bile dpt sambung blaja di UK..i pergi every single place that my dad pernah bawa i pergi dulu2....full of memories...tapi tk tercapai hasrat nk gi jenguk my dad's uni @ portsmouth...then i balik msia, working as a lecturer...alhamdulillah, kubersyukur dgn kekuasaanMU...amin...

no matter what ayah..i will always love u eventhough i'm too shy to show it directly...but now, i love to hug ayah so much..rasa tenang sgt2 (pesanan dr en azlaini, selagi ayah ibu kita masih ada, bile ada peluang, pelukla mereka)...

so ayah, i love you & will always pray for your happiness & always wish u'll stay healthy as u are now...muuahhzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ;) (gosh!! i'm so homesick...wanna get back home very soon!!!)